So today I went to lunch with my BFF and my big sis. We were talking, having a nice normal lunch conversation, and I mentioned that Ash was flying home from Chicago today. And my big asks if Ash is really going to college in Chicago in the fall. I said if not there, then in Indiana, most likely. Then she says she's concerned that Ash won't be able to live away from our family and/or my parents would constantly be worried because that's the family dynamic we have. And I completely agree that our family is too close knit to live that far away from each other. That's part of why I've been thinking of a transfer...(see where this is going??) Anyway, so then I mention that the idea of moving back to Indiana has been discussed a little in my house (not necessarily including me). And then my big says that she doesn't see me staying here if my family leaves. And I'm kinda just sitting there like, "What the heck just happened here??" and "This is so not the conversation that I wanted to have today, at lunch!" Anyway, my BFF knows about my possible transfer, and she was kinda sitting there like, "Where is this going?" I decided that today, at lunch, was not the best time to mention me possibly leaving, but I said that IF my family leaves, I'll have to look into my options. I know it's not the hugest of deals, but she kinda just caught me off guard. I thought that it would be hard to tell her that I was leaving, but she seems to understand that my family is really close, due to the fact that we've lived so far from extended family for so long. So maybe, when I make my decision, it won't be so hard to tell her.
Yeah, that's all I have for today. :) I figured since you got 3 posts in one day, I'd space the next one out a little. :)
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Amber Marie
p.s. Yes, my sister went to Chicago. Yes, I am very jealous. And she told me today that when (when not IF) we live in Chicago, we have to go to this restaurant (she'll probably comment the name, I just can't remember) the night we move in.
So yeah, there's that to look forward to. :)
Bye. :D
Well, there's a possibility that I might end up in Virginia, which would be a whole lot closer to Chicago than if I went to Pensacola. ;) So, yeah. I don't want to talk about how much I'll miss you guys because I totally think it's a great idea for you to follow your dreams and I don't want to discourage you in any way.
ReplyDeleteAnd I understand the family dynamic thing.
My parents don't want me going to a summer camp in Pensacola for a week without them. Much less to college across the country. Strong families.... yeah.
I know. I'm sorry about all of this Chicago talk. This is my place to say what I need to say where some people won't see it before I want them to know, you know? If I do leave, whether all of us do or not, it's going to be hard. There are a lot of relationships that will be tested, and I know that some will cease to exist, and honestly, that's what scares me the most. You don't need to worry about missing more any more than you already do at this point because I really don't know what I'm going to do. And believe me, there will be a blog post as soon as my decision is final, so you will be among the first to know.
DeleteMiss you Heathy!!
Aw, Miss you too!
Delete& you have to rant somewhere..... ;)And besides, I like being updated on your descision making.
Yes WHEN i got accepted its ur turn hurry up silly
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